SIBONELO SOLWAZI KA NDLOVU
I’m Writing You A Letter You Will Never read
But there never were words to describe you
You occupied the liminal space
between love and
un-love
from the start
I remember our first meeting
and I remember seeing a kindness in you
that is still there when we meet now
though, it is a kindness that I can never trust
Your moves toward me were as unsubtle
as a checkmate
I did not love you at first
I could not love someone who so utterly
trapped me
A period of my life
is now partially lost
Memories are afflicted with the strange light of sadness
It is like thinking in sepia