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NYOKABI KARIŨKI
On Learning that one of the first Electronic Works was by an African, Halim El-Dabh
MARIMBA ANI
An Aesthetic of Control
JANNIKE BERGH in conversation with HAIDAR EID
Even Ghosts Weep in Gaza
WANELISA XABA
White psychology, Black indecipherability and iThongo
Theme African Psychology
DYLAN VALLEY & BISO MATHA RIALGO
An Epidemic of Loneliness - introduction to the African Psychology theme section of herri #10
KOPANO RATELE in dialogue with ARYAN KAGANOF
Psychology Contra Psychology: In Search of the Most Appropriate Definition of African Psychology
N CHABANI MANGANYI
On Becoming a Psychologist in Apartheid South Africa
THOMAS HYLLAND ERIKSEN
African Psychology: serving as a reminder of human universals which have been lost or forgotten in mainstream Western psychology.
AUGUSTINE NWOYE
From Psychological Humanities to African Psychology: A Review of Sources and Traditions
SAM MATHE
Naming
ZETHU CAKATA
Ubugqirha: healing beyond the Western gaze
KOPANO RATELE
Dethingifying
PUMEZA MATSHIKIZA
A Psychological Explanation of Myself
SYLVIA VOLLENHOVEN
The Elephants in the Room
GWEN ANSELL
A New African String Theory: The Art of Being Yourself and Being with Others
ISMAHAN SOUKEYNA DIOP
Exploring Afro-centric approaches to mental healthcare
KOPANO RATELE
Four (African) Psychologies
LOU-MARIE KRUGER
Hunger
FIKILE-NTSIKELELO MOYA
"We are a wounded people."
CHARLA SMITH
Die “kywies” by die deur
KOPANO RATELE
Estrangement
MWELELA CELE
Sisi Khosi Xaba and the translation of Frantz Fanon's The Wretched of the Earth into isiZulu
HUGO KA CANHAM
Leaving psychology to look for shades and complexity in despair
MALAIKA MAHLATSI
When Black academics leave historically White institutions
PAUL KHAHLISO
AGAINST COLONIAL PSYCHOLOGY
KOPANO RATELE
The interior life of Mtutu: Psychological fact or fiction?
MTUTUZELI MATSHOBA
Call Me Not a Man
WILFRED BARETT DAMON
James Joyce En Ek
ASHRAF KAGEE
Three friends in Gaza: We grieve, we mourn, we condemn, we deplore, we march, we demonstrate, we attend seminars and webinars, we wave flags, we wear keffiyas, we show off our t-shirts, but still the killing continues.
KOPANO RATELE AND SOPHIA SANAN
African Art, Black Subjectivity, and African Psychology: Refusing Racialised Structures of Aesthetic or Identity Theories
galleri
DATHINI MZAYIYA
Musidrawology as Methodology
STEVEN J. FOWLER
Dathini Mzayiya – the sound of the mark as it comes into being.
NONCEDO GXEKWA
Musidrawology as Portraits of the Artist Dathini Mzayiya & his Art
NONCEDO GXEKWA & NADINE CLOETE
Musidrawology as Methodology: a work of art by Dathini Mzayiya
NJABULO PHUNGULA
Like Knotted Strings
SPACE AFRIKA
oh baby
STRAND COMMUNITY ART PROJECT
Hands of the Future
DENIS-CONSTANT MARTIN
The Blue Notes: Searching for Form and Freedom
DESMOND PAINTER
'with all the ambivalence of a car in the city...'
KOPANO RATELE
Ngoana Salemone/Mother
SOPHIA OLIVIA SANAN
Art as commodity, art as philosophy, art as world-making: notes from a conversation with Kopano Ratele on African Art, Black Subjectivity and African Psychology
ROBIN TOMENS
"Why don't you do something right and make a mistake?"
SIMON TAYLOR
On The Ontological Status of the Image
borborygmus
NAPO MASHEANE
Manifesto ea mokha oa makomonisi
MAKHOSAZANA XABA
Curious and Willing: Ngazibuza Ngaziphendula, Ngahumusha Kwahumusheka
RICHARD PITHOUSE
The Wretched of the Earth becomes Izimpabanga Zomhlaba
FRANTZ FANON/ MAKHOSAZANA XABA
The Wretched of the Earth - Conclusion
EUGENE SKEEF
Yighube!
VUYOKAZI NGEMNTU
Amahubo
MBE MBHELE
Who cares about Mandisi Dyantyis Anyway?
KARABO KGOLENG
Women and Water
BONGANI TAU
Notes on Spirit Capital
ADDAMMS MUTUTA
Conflict Cultures and the New South Africa
ADAM KEITH
A Conversation with Debby Friday
DICK EL DEMASIADO
Some Notes on Cumbia and Dub
MULTIPLE AUTHORS
Thinking decolonially towards music’s institution: A post-conference reflection
frictions
AAKRITI KUNTAL
Still
FORTUNATE JWARA
In between wor(l)ds
KHADIJA TRACEY HEEGER
A Love Letter
SHAFINAAZ HASSIM
Take your freedom and run
MPHUTLANE WA BOFELO
10 New Poems
KHULILE NXUMALO
Two Poems For
HENNING PIETERSE
Translating Van den vos Reynaerde (Of Reynaert the Fox) into Afrikaans
OSWALD KUCHERERA
Words to Treasure
MTUTUZELI MATSHOBA
To kill a man's pride
KELWYN SOLE
Political Fiction, Representation and the Canon: The Case of Mtutuzeli Matshoba
SABATA-MPHO MOKAE
Maboko a ga Alexander Pushkin 1799 - 1837
NAÒMI MORGAN
Why translate Godot into Afrikaans?
TENZIN TSUNDUE
Three Poems
claque
DILIP M. MENON
Hugo ka Canham’s Riotous Deathscapes
BARBARA ROUSSEAUX
Undoing Fascism: Notes on Milisuthando
WAMUWI MBAO
Ngũgĩ wa Thiong’o: Reclaiming the Territory of the Mind
SISCA JULIUS
Ausi Told Me: My Cape Herstoriography
SERGIO HENRY BEN
Read. Write. Relevance. A review of Herman Lategan's Hoerkind.
MARIO PISSARRA
the Imagined New is a Work in Progress
MPHUTHUMI NTABENI
The city is mine by Niq Mhlongo: A review
KARABO KGOLENG
The Comrade’s Wife by Barbara Boswell
DOMINIC DAULA
Pain, Loss, and Reconciliation in Music and Society
KNEO MOKGOPA
Normal Bandits: Mix Tape Memories by Anders Høg Hansen
ADDAMMS MUTUTA
‘Southern Cinema Aesthetics’: broadly imagined in multiple frames
RUTH MARGALIT
Writing the Nakba in Hebrew
LESEGO RAMPOLOKENG
Coming to Johnson
ekaya
KOPANO RATELE
From "Wilcocks" to "Krotoa": The Name Changing Ceremony
ARYAN KAGANOF
The herriverse: Introducing a new kind of Research Method, one that is Structural or even Meta- insofar as it exists in the Reader’s Navigation of the Curated Space and the Possible Contingent Connections as much as in the Objects being Curated; an Epistemic Construction therefore, that is obliquely but absolutely determined by Ontologically Unpredictable Exchanges.
MARTIJN PANTLIN
Introducing herri Search
off the record
UHURU PHALAFALA
Keorapetse Kgositsile & The Black Arts Movement Book Launch, Book Lounge, Cape Town Wednesday 24 April 2024.
PALESA MOKWENA
Lefifi Tladi - "invisible caring" or, seeing and being seen through a spiritual lens
CHRISTOPHER BALLANTINE
Edmund "Ntemi” Piliso Jazzing Through Defeat And Triumph: An Interview
DENIS-CONSTANT MARTIN
CHRIS McGREGOR (1936-1990): Searching for Form and Freedom
SHAUN JOHANNES
In Memoriam Clement Benny
VEIT ERLMANN
"Singing Brings Joy To The Distressed" The Social History Of Zulu Migrant Workers' Choral Competitions
SAM MATHE
Stimela Sase Zola
MARKO PHIRI
Majaivana's Odyssey
EZEKIEL MPHAHLELE
The Non-European Character in South African English Fiction
BASIAMI “CYNTHIA” WAGAFA
Hyper-Literary Fiction: The (meta)Poetics Of Digital Fragmentation – an interview with August Highland
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Thursday 20 February, 2020
LWAZI LUSHABA
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ALEKSANDAR JEVTIĆ
Stone Unturned 18: The Static Cargo of Stars
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HUGO KA CANHAM

Leaving psychology to look for shades and complexity in despair

You do not care about this news. But I write it anyway in order to record the moment and to think it through in writing. So, no, you do not have to read it. Watch a film instead. Scroll past.

I have left the department of psychology and the University of the Witwatersrand. To leave is to lean into something else. It is also to refuse. To move towards opacity. My sideways move away from discipline and academic tradition, is driven by my desire to stand aside. To stand aside is to be on the margin. Outside of the centre in order to cast a critical and sceptic’s eye. To glance quizzically. To sit with grey, ambiguities, confusion and nuance. Never committing fully. It is to be older. Perhaps to be jaded and burned. To recover and to claim a limited and liminal wisdom after the years of being on the inside. Taken for granted but supported by a small band too. To stand aside is maybe to be quieter, more deliberate and thoughtful. Less frazzled even.

For my scholarship, leaving Wits psychology is to adopt a critical eye that looks askance. It frees me to be suspicious of fads and single issue politics and scholarship. It frees me of the limitations of the psychological register.

I want to use my freedom to pay homage to the black mother against the wishes of the patriarch.

To tend to. To care for the dying and the dead. To applaud the death-defying dance at the centre of black life. To sit with the filicidal mother while steadfastly refusing pathology. To look askance is to love the queer adolescent and to see their doting father. It is to look for shades and complexity in despair. To apprehend life off stage.

Unmoored from psychology as discipline, I move towards something new and less defined in order to learn anew. To read and to be in community with those similarly adrift. To sometimes study literature and cadence instead of models. To be lost in poetry and adrift from frameworks. To love my rural folk and to learn about my township kin. To imagine kin as estranged from blood. As care. As community.

To move from a department of psychology is to own my jadedness and to learn how to care again. To learn from those who’ve been burned too many times but continue to care anyway. Where does your strength come from and how do you nurture it? Where do you get the audacity to be so steadfast in your solidarity with Palestine? With Abahlali BaseMnjondolo and the Amadiba Crisis Committee? With Khulumani Support Group?

I want to learn how you take care of yourself.

My move is motion towards forsaking borders, boundaries and rankings. It is to be in search of ideas and to trace their winding pathways beyond the nation state. For me, to move is to tarry on the Indian Ocean shoreline. To think from Zanzibar, Kenya, Mozambique, and the long Cape shoals. To imagine continuities where lines have been drawn. To be moved by Zimbabwe and Malawi and not to limit my care to Lusikisiki and Soweto.

To forsake colonial standards and university rankings is to heed Grace Khunou’s advice that black standards are always in doubt and that we carry our value with us. Deep inside.

To know your value beyond your employer. It is to imagine a universe bigger than Braamfontein.

To move away from Wits is to admit that I am a teacher in need of repair. To move is to refuse shame for not being a teacher in the traditional way. It is to relieve students of my wilting eye. It is to move away from curricula determined by professional boards and teaching and learning committees for whom well trodden pathways trump curiosity, discovery and the lessons of waywardness. To move this way is to be wayward. It is to embrace a truth I’ve known since I first learned to read in 1984. I am a writer. I need to give the writer a chance. My thoughts form in words. They emerge from my fingers. Haltingly. But with silence they form something.

To confess that teaching is too noisy for me at the moment, is to claim my writerly self.

Even though I am moving to another university, the move is a kind of refusal. To move to the side and to look askance means that I must refuse the things that institutions require. My refusals and protestations are not loud. I avert my eyes instead. But this too is a way of speaking. I look away and skulk waywardly from the directorship and deanery. Managers do important work but writers need silence. Writing requires the lonely road away from the corner office. My home is filled with silence because I do not have children. Friends are few. Silence helps me to think and to form sentences undisturbed. For me, writing is to be in a posture of refusal. Eyes turned to the screen. Buried in books. Averted. Looking at life askance.

To move requires honesty. This is to say, I arrive at this position of choice after years in the trenches. I arrive here by entering the full professoriate. My risk is calculated and not totally naive or financially risky. Honesty needs me to recognise the vulnerability of leaving a comfort zone. A comfort zone with no interest in my ideas. Where my dreams were at risk of being weighed down by the egos of others. Am I bitter? Some. But I’m not sorry for the fifteen years in Braamfontein. Walking away is also a decision not to linger in the place from which I walk. Honesty requires me to pause on the tender place of uncertainty. To admit to the fear that I may not be moving towards the quietude I imagine. To walk tentatively but with shoulders square.

Even with feelings of trepidation, the movement towards something else is a walk of hope. Towards a different kind of community. It invites reimagining oneself. Casting off bad habits and being open to newness. It is to hold back the self-protective shutters we learn to hide behind. It is to hope that I will attract doctoral students that do not want to solve problems and heal pathology but want to imagine expansive horizons of black freedom and radical love. To tend to self-love and rage. It is to imagine collaborative projects that teach me humility and pause. To move away from discipline is to hope I can finally write about the black waters of the boundless ocean. How they make and unmake us. To move towards newness is to hope for space to imagine ancestors that walked here hundreds of years before us. To divine their words and desires carried in the wind. In the stone walkways of cities and water springs in the folds of village valleys. In the ebb and flow of the tide at ILha de Mocambique and the Wild Coast.  

To strike a new path is to allow myself to dream anew. 
To write stories and to refuse entrapment.
To rely on my sense of survival and fortitude.
But it is also to nurture the courage to walk away whenever my freedom is at stake.
To value the freedom of errantry and to refuse stasis.
To wander the pathways of freedom.

first published on blog boundless freedoms here: hugokacanham

Re-published in herri with kind permission of the author.

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